Should I?

Oh man.

I think I think I think
I want a sewing machine
Haha...

But will I be using it frequently? Haiz..
Problem problem problem.
I could get it @ $199 now thou.
But it is still a problem.

Will I be using it frequently?
Brother BM2600 Hmmm... Is it any good?
Maybe I should wait for this year to end and see.

I want to go on a cruise and Taiwan.
Going to scotland for scenery seems like fun to me as well.
Lalala~ Why am I suddenly thinking of scotland? Weird.
But I don't think any of those will be going to happen this year.
I am hoping next year but that seems impossible too.

Crazy

Revolution.

I got back to where I started when I clicked that link with that photos showing that face.
Sleepless night plus deepless thoughts equals s t u p i d.

Blaming myself now for clicking on that link.

Sleep sleep and more sleep

Oh man! I wasted the whole Saturday off...
I slept till 5pm today!
I haven got my hair cut!
Sobsob.

I should start sewing my bear pieces together thou.
Change change my blog songs.

Am I getting sleepy after 7 hours away?
Oh my god.
My brain is malfunctioning.

How to mend broken hearts?

Argh~
I wanted type something but forgot all about it.

Should I change my URL?
Than this will really be a place of ranting.
Haha...

Time to cut hair.
But my hair abit short now to cut lei...
I realise that I judge the length of my hair according to the length of my fringe.
Which is wrong wrong wrong.

I need help!
Ideas ideas ideas.

I want to take AL!

Oh I remember what I want to type as well.
About my birthday~

People have been asking me about what I am going to do for my birthday.
When I say to stay at home and sleep.
Why do people either act like they did not hear it or simply decide for me.
If worst comes to worst, this will be a birthday without the birthday girl.
I can invite everyone I know, but I will not be attending.
Firstly, what is it with you can only have it once in a life time.
Don't you realise that every year of your life, every second is once in your life time as well?
Secondly, I do not want to handle emotions and other people emotions during that period.
So is either I don't care and tell everyone the time and date and let everyone come. Which will result in ackward situation or me stomping away cause people just can't keep their mouth shut.
Thirdly, do you all seriously think that I am one to have a birthday party just because I turn 21? DO YOU ALL SERIOUSLY THINK THAT? I DON'T CARE EVEN IF I DIE! JUST BURN AND PUT ME UP SOMEWHERE IT IS NOT GOING TO GO ANYWHERE ELSE IS IT?

Argh!
All this thinking is seriously getting me sick.
Thinking of thinking these questions and to-be situation is just simply irritating.
Just leave me alone, as I said before.
I am not like everyone else, my life, my heart, my mind is different.



I think my heart broke from all the thinking. Pain.

I love my Sewing box.

Help!
There is nothing to do online anymore!

Facebook has lost its novelty for me.
Videos are getting bored.
Story books are getting repeative and boring.

Oh ya!
My cloth!
Hmmm....

Gotta finish one before Shuyi flys thou.
Not going to tell you what it is.
Lalala~ Don't anyone say about it either!

Hmmm... Cloth~
I should find other patterns to cut out off thou.

At least I can . . . . .. .
Erm... Ha ha. . .
Not going to say that out thou.
I want to clear my room of everything.
Wardrobe, bed, laptop and a few other things is sufficent right?
Right?

Cloth cloth here I come.

. . .

My previous post like abit too long le...
Lots of ranting~ Haha...
Oh well.

Study loan, credit line?
Study loan, credit line?

Haha...

Mind now

Lets see~
What is going on in my mind at the moment now?

1. There is too much things up there. Hello? Clear some space please. Some is not even important.

2. Why the hell do people point without knowing, checking and asking?

3. What I did not deny does not mean that its ok to continue going on like it happened.

4. Ok, so min $30,000 for credit loan. Haha...

5. Do not I repeat Do not think that you know me, cause noone do.

6. I am not what you seem, I am actually more dark-hearted than most people, beware!

7. What I like to forget now also does not mean that it is ok. When I remember again, it will put everything in jeopardy.

8. Things that I can't tolerate is mostly things that seem simple and un-noticeable to others, but things people feel that should hace already push to my limit is actually things maybe I go through early in my life, or things I feel that is simple and small to me.

9. Normally, stepping on my landmine does not result in you being ignored or scolded. It will however result in me getting worked up to question like "Why am I letting this person step on my landmine?", "Why am I crying because I am angry that I let you step on my landmine?" and not question like "Why am I crying because of you?" or "Why did you step on my landmine?"

10. My reaction is normally different from people you see most of the time, does not mean that I don't feel their emotions (anger, happiness, sadness, wronged, used etc)

11. Sometimes I feel that I care too little for this life, this world, this universe. People come and people go. How many stays by you till your time is up? How many think of you when your time is up?

12. Sometimes 人就是那么的欠揍. They take a mile when you give a centimetre.

13. 直肠人 does not mean that you got a good digestive system, it means that you say what is on your mind straight out, sometimes before you can stop yourself.

14. Maybe because I was taught when I was small, that whatever you do there is a consequence, what ever you do right or wrong might come back to you wrong. So it is just taking it and accepting it. Guess my acceptance level is really high, cause I really have not not accepted. But small kind gestures might be pushed away from me because I would rather happily enjoy than to kindly enjoy.

15. So I am not kind at all. Just misunderstood.

16. What goes on here, stays on here.

17. There is still somethings swimming up there, have not caught it yet.